my life...

ok so i havent posted in awhile and from my last post i see i havent really lost anything im still at 136lbs BUT the good thing is i havent gained :) which is really good cuz its sometimes hard to even stay down...not that that is down down lol but its better then 160 :) BUT im going to stay commited i was just so stresses out and so much was changing and i had to get other things in order and i wasnt really worrying about myself b4 but now its all me allllllll me :)

just to catch you up i now am in love with my b4 we've been together since nov 16th and things were quite rocky at the begining but now are going wonderful i feel we still have some bumps in the road to over come but we can do it. im moving in with him in april and im very excited. ok so! this sounds mean but i asked my bf if he thought i was fat and he said no but then he was like well i guess you could lose 5lbs but thats really nothing....and i thought ouch..lol that fucking hurt i mean I think i need to lose wayyy more but i didnt think he thought i needed to lose anything but im almost posative he only said that cuz he knows im not happy with myself...Another thing the other day my roommate and i got into a hugr fight and i could here her calling me a FAT CUNT and i was like wtf? she fatter then me ? like really im not skinny but like this girl needs a fucking reality check she used to be like 100lbs but now shes like 150 lol all she eats is fast food its fucking gross!!!

so here is my plan for the week :)
going to try it out and see how much weight i loose i need to start small cuz im not fully on track ....

everyday ill only have one small healthy meal
and i mean samll tho
in the mornings i might have a small glass of juice or a small fruit tho so i can get my matabolism running :)

ill keep you updated on how it goes

goal
march 30th= 129lbs